Usually when I put Holden down for sleep, it is no problem. I just lay him in his crib, turn on his mobile, give him a blanket and bottle. Tonight was different. He was a little fussy and just wanted to be held. As I sat back and looked at him russeling around in his crib a flood of emotions came over me. I of course grabbed him and gave him a squeeze and laid him on my chest to sleep. He quickly nestled in and was out. I was looking at his sweet face and thinking how blessed I am to have this little boy in my arms. Healthy and ALIVE.
It was fathers day last year when Holden decided to grace us with his presence. I think this day will always be a special one for our family. I remember praying just to hold off one more day. I didn't know what the outcome was going to be, but I didn't want to risk a tragedy on Fathers day. I didn't want to ruin this day forever for B. Holden and God had other plans. He came and what an amazing gift that was.
B you are lucky to be able to share your day with such a sweet and unbelievable miracle. I remember that morning like it was yesterday. I was worried for you. I truly didn't want Fathers day to be a nightmare forever. I remember looking at you, scared out of my mind cause I knew it was time and you were so concerned. I remember your face perfectly. I remember your soft pats and small whispers of encouragement. I remember when you left the room during chaos. You were in your c-section garb. I knew where you were. Sure enough, I was right. You were in a quiet place, in prayer, pleading for Holden to have a shot in this life, and if he got that shot, you committed you would do all you could to raise him to the best of your ability.
What a father.
B I am so grateful for your faith. Lennon, Holden and I couldn't ask for a better dad and husband.
Really.
I hope you have a great Fathers day and we love you forever!
First time Lennon met Holden
Dad and Holden
Lennon and B... honestly, Lennon idolizes B.
**Holden is ONE tomorrow. Birthday post comin' right up!**
